It's 2 minutes to 2 am and I am still unable to fall asleep. It could be from watching Insidious 2 on Netflix with the cousins or maybe I just have so much going on in my mind right now. Maybe the latter.
I came across a Facebook post from Mufti Menk's facebook page.
It reminded me of conversations I had with my husband & my mom (on separate occasions). I mentioned several times that I just want to walk away from all the negativity in my life and focus on what makes me happy - life is too short to surround ourselves with drama and things that weigh you down.
When I saw this post, it somehow made everything clear, Alhamdulillah. I now believe, in life, we should always forgive everyone for their mistakes when they seek for forgiveness and even sometimes when they don't. A wise lady used to tell me that every night before she goes to bed, she would ask for forgiveness from her husband & that she would also remind herself to forgive all those around her. She always wakes up happy. Back then, I couldn't really grasp this idea as my young mind couldn't comprehend why I should forgive people who have wronged me, let alone when they didn't even bother to ask for forgiveness in the first place. I would like to think that my 31 year old self is now a little bit more wiser and more forgiving.. In shaa Allah :)
Forgiving people for their mistakes will eventually lift away most of the burden that is weighing you down after carrying all that anger and hatred, and in shaa Allah, if Allah wills it so, it will make you feel so much better. I am not saying that I am even close to this but I am working so hard to actually reach there.
I felt happy after coming across this post as it was the first post I saw when I went on Facebook. It just reaffirms what I have been thinking. It's alright to move on. Forgive and move on.. but it doesn't mean you have to continue talking to each other. You can choose to move on and walk away. It doesn't mean that you or the other person are bad people for walking away. It doesn't mean you don't care and it doesn't mean that you are going against Rasulullah SAW's teaching just because you want to walk away, no matter how others will try to perceive it that way. You are in control of your own life and it is up to you to live it how you would like to, as long as you do not hurt anyone along the way.
Only Allah SWT knows what is inside this little heart & only Allah SWT can judge me.
